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Experience


I ponder
words you speak
bathe and soak-in
emotions that breathe
conceptions misconception
the miseducation of feelings rite
like a flower blossoming in favor
of summer reign
I depend on you
like soil
to seasons change
hoping that you return
replenishing again
yet again
I beg 
Lord forgive me for I am weak
give me the strength 
to find what I seek
my days are long and my will 
lies asleep-weak
failure results- getting lost-in
achievements feats
I have big dreams but I’m tired of
my speech
when will I allow myself to be free
Ideals are nothing without drive
to complete
compete
mind over matter 
I sharpen skills
the outer shell is 
strengthened
however direction lost
like lost clouds storming over
natures fields-it owns but
can’t predict
the outcome of its acts
 forever wrapped in the
evolution of earth
oceans rolling tide could be 
the strongest force
yet still and calm
unlike birth
I search for serenity’s 
reflection of treasure
angels
in search of skills 
that permits one to be fruitful and happy
giving all to love
love that depends on
surrendering souls
I have faith in turnaround
and patiently wait
but if only I find the missing element
that will begin my 
exhale
my cries pray out to all whom listen
my tithes are tears wrapped in offerings
seeds yet to be planted
in this life or the next
I only wish to provide
for my family-the world
and those wandering
consuming eyes
 
 
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It Happened To Be Today


Today I wanted
the need
not to want
to feel without thinking of
the feeling
I wanted to see
a creation of love
one that acts
and then reacts first
for the benefit of me
asking all questions later
much later
no I needed for you to relinquish
any questions at all
Today I needed you to be
everything I wished you could be
just for a brief moment
to be held in the arms bearing
enduring comfort
Today I needed to be pampered
not in a physical sense
but mentally
to rebuild strength
Today I didnt want to ask
for you to neglect your priorities
I needed you to
I needed your focus
to be on me
I needed…
you too
I needed you to see what I needed
and be it
Today I lost it
That comfort
in every imaginable way
Today I was out of my mind
negative on negative
equals negative
but a positive can change the whole
equation
for some
math is hard to understand
but its important to know the numbers
always add up
Today I was looking
for you to be my light
and instead I received a compounded
darkness
so forgive me for being me
and I’ll forgive you for being you
instead of what i needed you to be
In the end I guess we are all human
so forgive me for being selfish too
I understand that there are somethings
others cannot see
be it willing, blindness or….
no matter how much
we need and want them
no matter when it happens
we all need a
Today
we want
Todays
so forgive us for trespassing
when we do and we don’t


Peer Pressure


She walks by
creating images of orgasmic flight
flirting with my third eye’s hindsight
curious am I
intentions are built upon
boastful talks with the fellas
shoulda coulda woulda’s
but I wouldn’t
so I lie

You see they just want to fuck
rub on the nipples
drink the passion fruit and
pimp the situation in talks with friends
but me, I see
possibilities walking by with a shaded face
I barely knew
I wanted to though

But here I stand
with boastful ambitions
talking about everything I would do
should do…explicitly
do as if your name were “ho”
because one was to nervous

I was to nervous
to figure out if there was gold
behind that rainbow
so yet again we lose out
I lose out
on gold again.


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