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Sometimes you have to stop worrying about all the things that could happen

let go be free, live your dreams and let life happen

Achieve what you have set out to be.


Ever After


After the romance and sweet sounds of linguistic tongue touching and laughter stops…

whats left

the return of investments I’ve been depositing for so long have the interest of caged bird song fall upon deaf ear and blind eye

I need a withdrawal slip

Something that tells me what its all worth

for years I have fed you with bits and inches of me day by day at a time

digging deeper and deeper with nouns and verbs committing grammatical sins giving myself meaning to reason dream and write rhyme

to prove hell and mountains will move before

I’m touched

with the momentum to change minds

building up character, showing courage, dining out with commitment

to free

well versed lines

I don’t mean to be selfish but this wasn’t for you

it was for I

I needed what I wanted

out of me so that I can get the best out of you

selfish

no selfless

I contend

the worst parts of you

brought out the best parts of me

I just want to know when the rainbow disappears

and the sky cries

and plea’s begin to thunder out echoes

of worse times and dead butterflies

quaking grounds will shake

royal rumbles will break true lies

bubbling lava seeps into loose ties

will my angel with clipped wings

still be able to fly

After the romance

sweet sounds of linguistic tongue

touching and laughter stops

whats left

whether you or I

hell and mountains will move before

I’m touched

with momentum to change time

rewind minds and forget about the moment

I made a choice

to deposit

sublime injections

of kaleidoscope erections versions

of me spilled over til the day that I die

remnants of my emotions still writing

from the scripted tight rope walk

intense deep exhale

because it was I who

was chosen to keep you high


Trying


Im Trying…
A tear stained heart left however broken
could not match the whole sum of my soul 
filled full of total empty space
Im trying
but lost love is held captive somewhere
and I’m determined to find this disgraced arithmetic
that makes me up
cradled between certain uncertainties
countless desires, needs unmet
wants never set
a bastard child with feelings of neglect
so I try
to field the void filled with equal pieces of you
act out thoughts of fantasies 
thats less than or equaling a sum greater than you
yet I fear that its you that my dreams speak
missing in action
reality holding on for a  sublime glimpse
seeking hints or reflections of you 
in me 
I am her son shadowing undefined
unidentified face 
nothing to do with you
so I try
to find me defined in my best image
to erase traces of your mistakes 
because now I’ve grown and the need of you
has been replaced with needing me
I’ve explored these soup kitchens closed doors and all
trying to grow
trying to find my mold in this melting pot
stirred with missing parts
Im trying
not to build myself from the remnants of
what I have been through
her smile
his stature
our views
experiences
I have learned to use everything  I could
disguising chamelionizing
But right now I must dedicate this piece
to the journey of finding
me

Care Anymore


When did it become

hit and runs

championing trophies

divide and conquest

How did we destroy your beauty

stop enjoying the simplicities

of conversation

noticing your pet peeves

hearing that sweet symphonic

sound in your laughter

how did we start putting

sex before sex

wheres the value in investments

plundering and pillaging

adventurous lust compelling

guts for glory

where is the chase

what makes it worth while

knowing you before I know you

knowing what I like about you

before  knowing how to like you for you

how can one determine worth

when countless others have tried

to show me for you

I am at a loss beginning to think that

this is how the world should

treat you

despite my values and belief in courtship

one day you will be my daughter

or he your son

and I will have to live with

the world I have helped shape

convince you

to look at me the same

as I look at you

where is forever in that

I pray that control and discipline

continue to direct me

in the way of valuing so i can be

the reason for my own not to

devalue


Soar


Take me to a place

filled full of fantasy, dreams

exonerated ecstasy.

create magnetic sparks filtered excite

beneath skin driving heart beats

inspired movements loudly calling out

climactic chivalry

lasting morning

noon

and night

give me something to eat

something to feel while feeding

watch life digest

brains expand

blossoming like flowers

with the sun’s dew dilingence

imparting light

give me a world unimaginable

so I can take it

and imagine new levels

setting my sights and creating it all over again


How do you….


How do you do that

mask your emotions

and hide your thoughts

 

How do you

 

pretend to be happy

act ok

let them have their way

 

How do you

 

handle the pain

not blame those for the reign

continue to smile

 

How do you

 

still care

still help

still offer chances

 

how do you

 

believe what they tell you

listen to their lies

remain so calm

 

how do you?

 

Its simple

I know who and what I am

and exactly what I’m not

no one can change that but me

 


Only If….


The Curse of the Gifted 
didn’t want to lie
fabricate emotion or meanings
only wanted, hoped, and pleaded for the real thing
Changing, 
we all grow and learn
everyday limited passion
replaced with fond memories 
learned experiences 
becoming a better self
 
The price of having a voice
sharing past, present, and future truth,
slinging words, feelings, and innovative ideas
for active thoughts-definitive action
 
proposals of loyalty
tithes for the silence of lovers 
satisfying gratuity
leveling the plateau 
leaking escape from the mold 
of ones perfect circle
 
Gifted are those who place the true
value of one as one
and cursed are those who recognize
the jagged edge to their perfect circle
consuming the need of change
 
When all one ever wanted
was one plus one to be two
enjoying the fork in the road
of that rollercoaster journey.
 
yet we trap our own intentions
with the overpowering curse of possession
fighting the war against puppetry, self, and
expectation
 
the curse of the gifted always stares back
at you in undying mirrors.

Hear Me Out


I could tell you things you want to hear

soft whispers in your ear

opening up about past times,

fears,

comparing you to light’s reflection

imprinted with manifestations

of sublime shadows

luxuriating eternal gism

goosebumps,

emotions elevated journey in flight ,

butterflies sitting on top of skin

drinking nectar produced from heartbeats

random adrenaline dream.

But I am not

I could sell you on possibilities

the difference between you, me and he’s

but be mindful

fore I am not your history

or past lives

I could care less about winning you over

with creative tongue’s,

Kama sutra’s sensual technique,

tantric euphoria,

or what most consider a woman’s special place.

In the end I am all about me getting the most out of you

for me

and thats real

I want you to do you, so I can do me, together

at best, the true definition of we

time will tell if we were meant to be

there will be hard times full of mystery

overwhelmed by the constant test of

selfish wants and needs that we’ll decline

just to establish our own insecure wants and corrupt thoughts

on how one should be

in the end should “we”

persist

it will be because I never gave up on you being you

or you,me


It Happened To Be Today


Today I wanted
the need
not to want
to feel without thinking of
the feeling
I wanted to see
a creation of love
one that acts
and then reacts first
for the benefit of me
asking all questions later
much later
no I needed for you to relinquish
any questions at all
Today I needed you to be
everything I wished you could be
just for a brief moment
to be held in the arms bearing
enduring comfort
Today I needed to be pampered
not in a physical sense
but mentally
to rebuild strength
Today I didnt want to ask
for you to neglect your priorities
I needed you to
I needed your focus
to be on me
I needed…
you too
I needed you to see what I needed
and be it
Today I lost it
That comfort
in every imaginable way
Today I was out of my mind
negative on negative
equals negative
but a positive can change the whole
equation
for some
math is hard to understand
but its important to know the numbers
always add up
Today I was looking
for you to be my light
and instead I received a compounded
darkness
so forgive me for being me
and I’ll forgive you for being you
instead of what i needed you to be
In the end I guess we are all human
so forgive me for being selfish too
I understand that there are somethings
others cannot see
be it willing, blindness or….
no matter how much
we need and want them
no matter when it happens
we all need a
Today
we want
Todays
so forgive us for trespassing
when we do and we don’t


Peer Pressure


She walks by
creating images of orgasmic flight
flirting with my third eye’s hindsight
curious am I
intentions are built upon
boastful talks with the fellas
shoulda coulda woulda’s
but I wouldn’t
so I lie

You see they just want to fuck
rub on the nipples
drink the passion fruit and
pimp the situation in talks with friends
but me, I see
possibilities walking by with a shaded face
I barely knew
I wanted to though

But here I stand
with boastful ambitions
talking about everything I would do
should do…explicitly
do as if your name were “ho”
because one was to nervous

I was to nervous
to figure out if there was gold
behind that rainbow
so yet again we lose out
I lose out
on gold again.


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