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It Happened To Be Today


Today I wanted
the need
not to want
to feel without thinking of
the feeling
I wanted to see
a creation of love
one that acts
and then reacts first
for the benefit of me
asking all questions later
much later
no I needed for you to relinquish
any questions at all
Today I needed you to be
everything I wished you could be
just for a brief moment
to be held in the arms bearing
enduring comfort
Today I needed to be pampered
not in a physical sense
but mentally
to rebuild strength
Today I didnt want to ask
for you to neglect your priorities
I needed you to
I needed your focus
to be on me
I needed…
you too
I needed you to see what I needed
and be it
Today I lost it
That comfort
in every imaginable way
Today I was out of my mind
negative on negative
equals negative
but a positive can change the whole
equation
for some
math is hard to understand
but its important to know the numbers
always add up
Today I was looking
for you to be my light
and instead I received a compounded
darkness
so forgive me for being me
and I’ll forgive you for being you
instead of what i needed you to be
In the end I guess we are all human
so forgive me for being selfish too
I understand that there are somethings
others cannot see
be it willing, blindness or….
no matter how much
we need and want them
no matter when it happens
we all need a
Today
we want
Todays
so forgive us for trespassing
when we do and we don’t

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Peer Pressure


She walks by
creating images of orgasmic flight
flirting with my third eye’s hindsight
curious am I
intentions are built upon
boastful talks with the fellas
shoulda coulda woulda’s
but I wouldn’t
so I lie

You see they just want to fuck
rub on the nipples
drink the passion fruit and
pimp the situation in talks with friends
but me, I see
possibilities walking by with a shaded face
I barely knew
I wanted to though

But here I stand
with boastful ambitions
talking about everything I would do
should do…explicitly
do as if your name were “ho”
because one was to nervous

I was to nervous
to figure out if there was gold
behind that rainbow
so yet again we lose out
I lose out
on gold again.


Squeeze It Out


sometimes
you just need to speak
say something
any thing
whether it be a scream
yell shriek
a song
a moment of release

just squeeze it out

Sometimes
you must declare
stand
give a damn
and be who you are
no matter
how brief
or what those watching may think

Sometimes
you need to feel
invoke passion
evoke reality
share insanity
deny plagiaristic company
fakes
whom only deny you, you

Just Squeeze it out
and maybe
you will be able to release
be completely free
to be whoever you want to
be


Nobody’s Perfect


Just trust me
I admit I’m not absolute
and my love comes with faults
my intentions are pure
therefore any signs of affection
however scorned, or worn
have been birthed
adorned forever upon a blank canvas
causing fractions of minute colours and palettes
falsified fantasies of sublime energies
of what will, should and forever be
the right dimensions of man, I mean…
I may not be your dream
may never be
Ive spent life chasing greatness noticing
attributes and values to the likes of
hardened women
whom spent offerings rebuilding, giving…undertaking
unfaithful beatings
I only wish to fill in the holes
completely eradicate damages caused
and offer you something to take
admire and value
the strength of a real man
one who quenches that thirst
depleting needs
elevating you to the point of queen
to offer you a love greater than the
sum of me
so while it may be a journey one cant explain
I offer you to explore the best of me
and discover the possibility of whats longs
to be
endures to be
Love of and from
me


Alone


From dusk till dawn feelings have
while I have not
others bathed in the shining of light
only I
observed the tenants of desire remain
hidden behind depths of shadows
dreaming of you
I in your place experiencing the fruits 
inhaling the life as you do
yet here I am…wanting
possession, control, to be awakened
revived in the dying of the light
reliving the childhood fight
a runaway parent and ones striving to set it right
lost beginnings & feared endings
enshrouds mystery
of clear clouds and silver linings
yet I am to you
as the sun is to the earth
or as nature  is to man made structures
and I fear it will be so
until…
 
 
 

FOIBLE


 Im in love with the…

commitment.

the thought of having one around

going through it

the madness of arguments

the screaming,

the fighting and neglect of…

passionate moments unjust

un-wasted hunger just cause

we love.

For moments at a time,

then years fade we change

seasons

competition breeds summer scent

springs beauty

distracted by refreshment

unstable from the heat

we get wrapped up in weakness

not even cement starts out strong

Im in love with the…

promise

the thought of avoiding loneliness

anger rises with poached hearts

yet seeds are dropped for love to

start

belief in one

after all things we’ve done

been through

 its never safe to say…

I got it-

my need not to be alone

feeling around the dark I seek the need

of a life long witness

exploring the depth of life’s adventures

entering the fiery pit of

good times some bad

I love you,

I think you love me too

although words spoke

cuts deep

your heart hurts

mine does too

but its our world

its just us two

me & you

no matter the storm

accept the grandeur

forgive us lord for hearts in-flight

our unstable emotions that cause

divide

and grant us this love

for life


Love Injection


I stood tall light headed in disbelief,
My brain felt dizzy…as my sight began To focus on what appeared to me
She was as real as light traveling through Hemispheres!
With reflections of truth like Eve looking at her-Fruit-tree
Only she is the fruit looking at me
With kinetic energy signature stamped
On the meeting of eyes that began Intense friction
I began contemplating my speech Im thinking!
Forget about the words, forget the nouns and verbs Of creative tongue
I want to stain the flesh
With pictures and symbols like Hieroglyphics preserved on walls
I want to bare imprints of expressions Long enough for the discovery of souls
Intertwined so strong you can relax knowing
That this legacy of our time
Will forever be told!
Like the Bible of life
Im thinking of love on a purity level
Im thinking…maybe theres something more
Than living between those sheets
More than the pleasure of being on bended Knees
Im thinking of wanting you for your needs
And all I need is your answer
this time Im putting you before me


Free


What happened to the hunger
proverbial head trip
entrenched authentic
irrefutable adolescence
who dreamed of travel
blindly riding the currents of wind
peaking
tracing their footsteps
exploring their peace of heaven
hearing a voice of contention
in a mainstream existence
forced to choose between
rich or poor
what happened to the good days
kids playing in the sand box
swinging playing hop scotch
jump rope type days
cops and robbers
cowboys and indians
vivid convictions genuine in essence
but these times know no hesitation
it waits for no one
like raw alcohol with no chaser-we chase it
some how we learned to engulf this
temporary penetration of fulfillment
choking on this
poisonous hope
becoming slave to the trade, induced green paper grains
we use to dream of life
fantasizing
stuck on stupid
with our hands out and pockets parched
we swallow humanity salivating
oh how sweet it would be to have that next dead president
lie full in our pockets
its clear
we’re not all about the Benjamins
we want it all
sacrificing happiness and family
tied up and hanged
openly and publicly
stitched in the values of material things
we contract this image and glory
money over bitches
sex cars and switches
we stain the youth
passing the buck
we pitch tents with for sale signs
cashing in the monetary values
robbing youth of minds
blindly raping sheep in wolfs clothing
we are building a race to death cycle
obviously civilization lives not
and it shows no regret
there will be no reward
character
courage
and honor left this place a long time ago
sailing away on a ship never to be found
and we wonder where it went
we must right this ship
free the May Flower


Conscious Mind


As the clock strikes
time hits close to home
I ponder the words you speak
bathe and soak in
emotions that breath
conceptions misconception
the miseducation
of feelings flight
rites
like a flower blossoming in favor of summer reign
I depend on you like the soil of
seasons change
Hoping that you return to replenish
again
lord forgive me for I am weak
give me the strength to find what I seek
my days are long and my will is at sleep
I feel failure for getting lost in achievements
feats
I have big dreams but tired of my same ole speech
when will I allow myself to live free
its the goal that I try to preach
ideals are nothing without the drive to complete
compete
mind over matter
I sharpen skills
where the outer shell is strengthened
and focus is in contention
yet
direction is still lacking
lost like a dream
like clouds storming over
all that nature owns
fields unable to predict
the outcome of natures act
the earth
forever wrapped in the wrath of evolution
life
force proving to be the strongest
element
yet able to be still and calm
it reflects
I search for my lost treasure to bare
serenity
in skills that will allow me to be fruitful and happy
giving my all to the things I love
people
that depend on my surrendering soul have faith
in my turnaround yet
patiently I wait
for the missing principle
that will govern my
exhale
my cries pray out to all whom listen
tithing tear drops as offerings
seeds to be planted in this life or the next
I only wish to provide
for those who know my consuming eyes
cry to sustain the dryness of red eyes and
lost flights
my struggle with growth
begins to unfold
the drama surrounds me as I sit here cold
wondering about the next steps
and what it takes for one to be bold
how do you make your dreams come true
while traveling the road filled with
forks
self doubt and being
poor.


For Moment Sake


Control guilty pleasures of swallowing sin

sweet sincere passions, travel amongst wild winds

serenity caressing sweet fingertips of joy

pain, reveling in the innocence of rampant intuition

wandering amongst fine lines of ambiguous terrain

moments floating in a shroud of mistakes

lost compliments, desirous straits

pure intentions scour the depths with or without meaning

falling for something, only for being

overwhelmed by the power of endless fantasies

exhausted emotions rage against the beloved

attesting ideas and possibilities,

behold awareness of your feelings

involved are we whom stand next to bearable fruits

forbidden or not, human nature craves existence in adventurist shots


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