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Trying
Im Trying… A tear stained heart left however broken could not match the whole sum of my soul filled full of total empty space Im trying but lost love is held captive somewhere and I’m determined to find this disgraced arithmetic that makes me up cradled between certain uncertainties countless desires, needs unmet wants never set a bastard child with feelings of neglect so I try to field the void filled with equal pieces of you act out thoughts of fantasies thats less than or equaling a sum greater than you yet I fear that its you that my dreams speak missing in action reality holding on for a sublime glimpse seeking hints or reflections of you in me I am her son shadowing undefined unidentified face nothing to do with you so I try to find me defined in my best image to erase traces of your mistakes because now I’ve grown and the need of you has been replaced with needing me I’ve explored these soup kitchens closed doors and all trying to grow trying to find my mold in this melting pot stirred with missing parts Im trying not to build myself from the remnants of what I have been through her smile his stature our views experiences I have learned to use everything I could disguising chamelionizing But right now I must dedicate this piece to the journey of finding me